I am 18 and I think I didn't had a great childhood.

Apparently I spent most of my pre-teen life at home, I was an introvert. At the age of 12, I started discovering things about computers; at 13, I started basic programming and web development; at 14 I built my own blogging website with PHP and even made my own themes with various content management systems; at 15 I learned Linux & its terminal commands, bought myself a VPS, and self-hosted websites, vpn servers and email servers; I even became one an open source contributor and became one of the maintainers of some projects that made significant stars and forks in GitHub; at 16, I tried my luck with software development and built my own trojan horse with visual studio (that mainly allows me to control a windows PC, records keyboard strokes, and sends periodic screenshots to a server that I own); at 17, I started hacking, but nothing illegal though.

And finally, when I was in 11th grade, I started making real friends, and I can say that it was really one of the best days of my life because it was in these days that I did most things the first time with my closest friends, but still I felt out of place whenever they talk about their childhood and teenage life. I mean, I can always imagine how being a boy scout feels like, but never did I experience being one for real (because my mother thought it would trigger my childhood asthma). And then now, I'm 18, college it is and so are my friends – we took our separate ways and now I never felt as lonely as before, but I'm trying to get back on track. So now, I'm learning application containerization with docker in Linux.

Now, does all the computer knowledge that I have accumulated in these past few years worth more than the things that the people of my age are expected to be doing?

I really did missed a lot in life considering that I can only be a child once...

But still, I want my friends back. 😥